It's day nine of the master cleanse. Today I did everything as I should. I'm ready for something different. Tomorrow, I'm drinking grapefruit juice. I've never been the biggest fan of said juice, but tomorrow it will feel like the largest triple espresso milkshake I've ever imbibed.
I'm mentally exhausted. I know this has been triggered by the fast, but I think it all comes down to this:
Maybe my boredom breeds self discovery, and self discovery breeds either self-loathing or small amounts of change. (This is all conjecture. This is what I do. This is part of the discovery I've made during the self discovery portion of the fast.) Self-loathing breeds more boredom, as it is accompanied by feelings of worthlessness that keep one from doing things that would relieve one's boredom.
Change comes very slowly, especially when one doesn't put oneself in situations where one can learn a lot quickly, and all of the little realizations you make on the way are tough, leading to more self-loathing (hopefully progressively smaller each time). If you can somehow balance out the ratio of change to self-loathing before you die, and maybe tip it at least slightly in the direction of positive change, I say you've had a successful life. That's it. That's all there is.
Granted, this isn't the case for super chipper people or super learned people or for super benevolent people. For them, there's more to life. But for me, I think that's pretty much what it all boils down to...
And that, friends, sums up my Master Cleanse experience. That and the fact that there's no poo left in my body.
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- Milkmaid and her pail
- From Aesop: A farmer's daughter had been out to milk the cows, and was returning to the dairy carrying her pail of milk upon her head. As she walked along, she fell amusing after this fashion: "The milk in this pail will provide me with cream, which I will make into butter and take to market to sell. With the money I will buy a number of eggs, and these, when hatched, will produce chickens, and by and by I shall have quite a large poultry-yard. Then I shall sell some of my fowls, and with the money which they will bring in I will buy myself a new gown, which I shall wear when I go to the fair; and all the young fellows will admire it, and come and make love to me, but I shall toss my head and have nothing to say to them." Forgetting all about the pail, and suiting the action to the word, she tossed her head. Down went the pail, all the milk was spilled, and all her fine castles in the air vanished in a moment! (Do not count your chickens before they are hatched.)
2 comments:
Dude. Not to minimize your cleansing discoveries, but those seem like things you already knew. Okay, maybe you hadn't been able to articulate them as such. Granted. Sometimes articulation is important and, I guess, can only happen in the right circumstances, such as when one has been fasting.
So, just to be clear...thanks to the master cleanse, we now know that the key to lives such as ours is to tip the scales in favor of positive change (as accumulated slowly and in very small and perhaps painfully achieved increments) over self-loathing. Excellent.
If you are super chipper, learned or benevolent, then there may be more.
Can we inspect this idea of change a little? What do you have in mind? You mention realizations. So do you mean a change in perspective? Small changes in perspective that lead to changes in behavior perhaps that lead to a successful life? I think it would be interesting to pursue this thread a little. I'm interested in squeezing as much juice as I can from your fasted revelations. That's not a pun is it? Well, I tried.
Hey, what about humour and clevernous and creativity? What about bringing about joy in others and ourselves? There are a lot of ways to be successful. I think it's all about perspective--being able to accept yourself as a success.
Yeah, I guess that's where change comes in...damn, maybe I should stop eating for awhile so that my next comment makes more sense. Baaah!
Apparently a good fast can put a fine point on it - things we already know. Not that I'm going to be a fast junky...
But when you say 'it would be interesting to pursue this thread a little', I feel vast amounts of dread. If the change one needs is the ability to actually develop the skill to explore and pursue ANY Thread a little (or a lot), then it's an excruciatingly slow exploration no matter what said thread is. Whew. Maybe I need to fast again so I can make more sense.
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